"Rhetorical Space—that is, public space with the potential to operate as a persuasive public sphere—is created not through good-intentioned civic planning or through the application of a few sounds and reasonable rhetorical rules of conduct. Ordinary people make rhetorical space through a concerted, often protracted struggle for visibility, voice, and impact against powerful interests that seek to render them invisible. People take and make space in acts that are simultaneously verbal and physical."
---Nancy Welch, Living Room: Teaching Public Writing in a Privatized World
While chalking I could not stop thinking about the politics of a white male, like myself, writing "I am female. Secondary. Ancillary. Subsidiary. I am voiceless" (Chaffee 27). Countless questions emerge. Am I perpetuating the "voicelessness" by virtue of my identity and my privilege, by "giving" voice to voicelessness? (all these terms trouble me a bit, but keep with me). Or might that critique, in fact, work to render that "voicelessness" somehow more visible? Both (and more), right? If so, then I imagine context is important--context is always important--and passersby should maybe know a dude transcribed that quotation.
Isn't the context of
who is chalking these quotations (and why) important? If so, how do we identify ourselves? Have we already identified ourselves? How many people saw us chalking? How many teachers and administrators know about this project? In what ways were we performing a version of activism? I felt different when tours were walking through campus and they could see me on the ground, hands and knees, chalking Adrienne Rich. I enjoyed seeing mothers and fathers paying less attention to the tour guide and more attention to our writing. In my imagination they were sneering at our politics while we composed.
Two dudes threw a football back and forth to each other, stepping on the chalk.
A "middle-aged" woman stood over my shoulder asking, "What are you writing?" "Virginia Woolf?" "What are you writing?" As much as I hoped and imagined the purposes of this project as engaging with public voices, as much as I wanted to open dialogue and discuss politics with people normally unconcerned strolling by in Spaights Plaza, I did not respond to this woman. Here it was, a "public sphere" created, in a sense. And I ignored it. Why? Partly engaged and concentrating on my writing, looking from book to chalk and making sure the writing was neat and legible...but mostly I think I was afraid of getting yelled at for my politics. I kept working and she eventually shuffled away to talk with Mike and Shereen. Ugh. What assumptions was I making about this woman and her politics? Was my fear of "getting yelled at" perpetuating the stereotype of the "irrational" or "hysterical" woman? How did I not see the tragic irony of writing about voicelessness and not responding to this woman's questions? Engaged in public activism I am a conflicted, contradictory, actor and I'm pissed off about it.
Given Shereen's post about the physicality of chalking and how material conditions shape what is written and how....is it possible to contextualize our experiences in ways that help shape the readings of those quotations? In what ways have we already contextualized our experiences?
Should students and faculty walking by know this project is for a conference presentation? How do our professional "obligations" change/shape what we say and how we say it?
What are the consequences of claiming authorship of chalking in a public space?
Am I exploiting the very real and written pain of others for my own personal political and professional (conference/dissertation) gain?
Is Spaights Plaza a public space? If so, how is that determined? Who or what counts as public? According to whom? In what situations? By what criteria? And, finally, whose interests are served in naming and claiming particular publics?
I find it interesting that the first quotation I chalked ("I am female. Secondary. Ancillary. Subsidiary. I am voiceless") was not chosen to be reproduced in front of the family planning clinic because it could be read as the "voicelessness" of a, um, fetus. Did we want our chalkings to be read in multipe ways? Isn't part of our project to see how messages are read differenlty in different public spaces? Chalking at the family planning clinic was an unusual experience and I'm very interested to hear what Mike thinks about it after a night of reflection.
At the end of the day, after writing interesting and provacative quotations from important feminist thinkers and writers, I write
"The Christian Right Hates Women" in bright pink chalk. This is what I've wanted to say the entire day. It is an extremely uncomplicated message, an overt and unambiguous overgeneralization that I would question in any one of my student's papers...but there it sits as I type this. It is the sort of rhetoric I abhor, that I reject, an uninvestigated claim. But I wanted response. We did leave chalk, inviting others to write back. And from reading Shereen's text messages this morning it sounds like some responsed.